mandy journel

its most properbly starts with my love story...
cause i start couple since i'm 13 years old..
haha...sound too young izzit..?
but...just like others young couples...
we just kissing...hugging...(nothing more than that okay..?)
but...
when i'm grew bigger and being more mature now...
i start realise somethings....
i was thinking that i really in love with everyone i've been couple with...
but...
the truth is...i'm not....
i think i relly start falling in love with 1 guy...
i mean...
at last...
i meet someone i really love or da 1st time...
when i'm was 18 years old..(now...)
but...da result i get is...
his breaking up with me....
and the reason is...i rather bein demanding by my mum...
i love my mum....
she is da only relatif i hav now...
i just dun understand,why cant he try to understand me...?
i still remember what he telling me before da day he wan to clash wif me...
he said:i really love u,dun suspesious my love for u..."
so...whats actually its mean..?
i dont get it...
my heart rather get hurt when i went to his office nearby and find him...
sound brave dont i...?
i try to get things clear...
but...he rather said that he dun love me...he try to make me get off him...
i really hurt...
the time he saying all that...
its happen on last months...
am i going to forget bout him and starts a new life without him again?
i love him....
i love him so much...
da tears i flew is not much...
but enough to sink my heart from floating...to breath again...
and again......